Tuesday, May 01, 2012
Need: 1 runaway bus
Jon has been super busy rubbing it in my face that he can get whatever he wants from Maureen all by saying he's her boyfriend.  He insults her so much, why would he want anything to do with her?  He likes to go on about how needy she is, and how any amount of affection he gives her is lapped up like a dog.  Any normal man wouldn't want to date her simply based on how desperate she is to have a man.  It doesn't even matter if that man is Jon, ANY man will do.  And she's convinced herself that he is her soulmate.  A normal man could get by without having a girl licking his boots.  I have zero respect for him.  The way he is so emotionally and physically abusive.. Can't wait for Jon to show her exactly what he's really like.  She can walk around with bruises and lie about how she got them. 
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Monday, April 30, 2012
Abuse
My arms ache.  My (ex) boyfriend has been grabbing them and shaking me.  Choked me over and over while screaming in my face.  Pinched my arms, pulled my hair.  Pushed me into the sink, the counters, the fridge.  Pushed me into the kitchen chair making it go flying.  My roommate's work laptop was on the chair, I really really hope it's okay.  He put me in a headlock, grabbed my foot and tried to crush it.  Grabbed my jaw, dug his hands into my sides.  I'm covered in bruises.  It doesn't matter, I have nowhere to go.  I'm shaking so badly.  I thought he was going to kill me.  I didn't even fight back, I tried to push him away each time he grabbed me but the second I'd  make contact he'd grab me harder screaming for me to get his hands off of him.  He threatened to call the police.. on ME!  It's always my fault.  Last week I was diagnosed with an STD, and promptly abused for cheating.  I have nowhere to go.
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Sunday, April 29, 2012
Pissed
LOTSOFANGRYHATEWORDS!!!!! 

So my boyfriend of ten long years, Jon, is an asshole.  He's spent most of the ten years unemployed doing NOTHING except playing Warcraft for 18-20 hours a day.  I've been in this 'relationship' alone where I've mainly just entertained myself, until he starts screaming about lack of sex.  Let me be clear to anyone who is stupid; If you suck in bed, if you refuse to..give a lil back, and sex is over when YOU finish, uh your girlfriend isn't going to have much interest in sex.  Just sayin'.  So in a few months it'll be two years ago that he fucked some girl he met at BW3, he promptly got an STD from her and passed it onto me-back off ladies this prince is mine.  He convinced me how much he looooves me and couldn't stand to be w/o me so we decided to work on things.  This pretty much means he didn't do shit and I did everything for him.  Last spring my roommate and I moved into Jon's house, mainly to save my roommate a big chunk of money.  Things were fine between us so we moved in on March 15th saying that we'd give this a go for a year and then see where we can go from there.  Every. Single. Day. Jon would say in some sort of teasing/condescending tone "March 15thhhhhh" like he was counting down the days of when we were to leave.  A few months after we moved in, Jon started working sporadically through Special Council a few hours here and there.  He would come home everyday and talk about all the hot women he works with and how he was going to 'hit that', always with an insult to how I looked.  He told me that these women at work worshipped him and that he was the best worker, fish big in a little pond with barely any room for his massive ego.  As these women "worshipped" him, he began to treat me worse and worse.  Finally on new years day he abruptly said it's over and gave no chance to work on things (not HIM work on things, of course.)  After this I was treated like a servant.  I was to cook and clean, do his laundry, and keep my mouth shut when he wanted to screw other women. Oddly enough he kept treating me exactly like I was his girlfriend.  Only..more.  We started having sex four times a week, told me he loved me at least 20 times a day, always wanted to cuddle, would never want to be without me..but then would follow it up with "but I just can't be with you."  Then it would be, well maybe if you lose weight or get a good job we can be together, always holding the carrot above my head to get me to stay. He started telling me about this (his words) nutcase Maureen Johnson that would call him and text him begging him to talk to her and go to lunch.  He said he felt bad for her because her boyfriend just dumped her.  One night I came home and couldn't find him in the house, turns out he was in our basement hiding on the phone with Maureen.  Naturally, I did a WTF, why sneak off to talk to a "friend"?  Several more times he did this.  Always claiming that he had no interest, that she wasn't attractive, that she was mentally unstable and on medications for it, that she was too needy, etc.  Out of curiosity I listened to a voicemail of hers and it was her sobbing into the phone about how she needed a "Hi" text from him to make everything right again in her world.  Wtf?  Take more meds, please.  A few weeks after that it was a weekend and we woke up and he asked me what we should do that day.  I said I'd like to go to Home Goods in MG, he said okay, that he just had to put some power steering fluid in his car.  And then he left.  Not a word to me, but apparently he had a date allllll set up with Maureen.  I called him several times and texted him asking him what the hell was going on.  He finally admitted that he was out with a bunch of friends and he'd be home tonight.  I kept calling because I knew this was bullshit, who sneaks off to meet a bunch of friends??  So FINALLY she gave this grown man permission to give me a call back, thanks so much, Maureen, you're a peach.  So he calls me back and admits that he was out with this girl, I ask him what the hell and he says crap along the lines of, I love you so much don't worry about her, she called me hysterical that she needed to see me.  More bullshit I'm sure.  He gets home later on that night and of course tells me that he can barely stand her, how annoying she is, that he's trying to be a friend to her, but that he would never DREAM of dating her, that he can see exactly why her ex boyfriend didn't want to be with her.  Over the next few weeks her contact with him is constant.  She sends worshipping texts and voicemails, and he feeds right into it.  I find out that yet again they've made plans.  I send her a text telling her she is one horrible bitch if she's really trying to date my boyfriend of ten friggin years.  She sends back that too bad she has feelings for him.  Let me remind you that she's seen him like 4-5 times..yeah she totally has feelings for him, she needs help.  She starts with the lovey stuff towards him and gets it in her head that he is her boyfriend.  He tells me no, they're not even dating.  She sends me texts saying that they're together and in love, and been fucking for a month, that I am to pack up and move out because they are making plans for her to move in.  I show him the texts and he is disgusted.  I guess not enough because his ego needs more stroking.  About two weeks ago, he goes out on yet another 'date' with her and stayed over at her house and I'm sure had sex with her.  I stupidly believed him after a giant fight that he didn't, and we resumed our sex life.  So now our sex life has landed me in Urgent Care this past weekend, on meds for an STD from this girl.  What kind of people does he involve himself with?  Pieces of trash that fuck around so much they can't be bothered with taking care of themselves?  She's so needy and clingy that she'll fuck a guy hoping they'll want to date her, and spreading STD's around.  Even today he tells me that he likes Maureen, but he loves me.  He tells the same thing to his family and friends.  I'm not sure why she's hanging around, hoping to date a dismissive inconsiderate prick?  He's so negative about her, about how she's a subpar attorney, how he's not attracted to her, how manipulative she tries to be, how fat she is.  I know other people that know her and they can't stand her.  I don't understand why he's trying so damn hard to keep me in his life.  I want out of this house and it's like he can't even stand the thought of it.  He wants me, but a repackaged me.  I want to be with someone I can trust.  I can't afford to move out, and my roommate refuses to move, I'm screwed.  Jon gets such a thrill from jerking me around, from holding that carrot over my head.  We have separate beds because of his super soft mattress, but he'll beg me to sleep in there with him, or he'll come crawl into my bed.  Every single night he wants me to lie in bed with him while he falls asleep and talk to me about how he wishes we could fix things.  I really want this Maureen to back off, but HE is the problem.  He should be telling her to go the fuck away and have some boundaries.  I'm so beyond hurt.







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